remember me

Being in God’s calling is difficult but you need to endure it, making a difference in the life of the people that you are ministering of. I am aware that I am God’s minister and sometimes in my life I tend to fail God, and the people who looked at me. We definitely make a peoples difference if they saw that we are an agent of age. Change starts within us.

It’s so sad to leave my current area of ministry, missing those people who encourages me when they feel that I am weak, those people who accepted me for who I am and what I am and thinking those children in the field that when we come in their place they smile at us because they are happy that we visited them and teach them. I really don’t know what the will of God is whether I come back or not. But back of my mind said that let them do it so that they will learn. Same with with my home church.

Oh I don’t know my feeling about this, I remembered when we had our youth fellowship in the church that someone asked us how would you remember when you are dead? For me it’s so hard and I don’t know how people would remember me in the ministry maybe some of my closest friends in the ministry would tell that I am a strict, perfectionist woman. But for me I would like to remember that I am so blessed that I know Christ who gives patience, joy, understanding and to share His love to other people. A person who is strict yet a giver, sharing my passion to others. Its always strike me this question of how people would remember me because i am not a people center especially those people I first met, i felt hard to put my trust to them and to mingle with them; I am a person who is hard to adjust. Thinking those time I know that God uses me in a different ways and bringing passion to the little ones, strengthening my spiritual growth and putting my trust to Him more and more.

changing and transforming

In this temporal world we have ups and downs in our lives. Christians as we are, we need not to give up but rather to stand firm in Christ. Being a Christian is not easy even you grow up in a Christian home because sometimes friends influence you and me. Through the ebb of facing our daily lives we also face many challenges like in our emotional, social and spiritual and the battle is there.
We may not know what comes tomorrow in our lives but we need to trust in Christ alone. Christians are being mandated to plant seed or even to plant an apple tree which is the message of God. Martin Luther encourage us that even in the upside down of this world we need to share God's message, not giving up to the challenges that may comes in our way. Dreams and plans may come and go but the word of God still remains in the heart of His people.
Changing our life and perspective into Christ eyes perspective view. Sometimes we don't understand what God wants us, but we know that He has a better plans for our lives.Changing and transforming is sometimes hurtful,experiencing pain and broke your heart, but at the end the process is enduring. Each of us has a different perspective in life but God has a better perspective than ours. Transforming is like a caterpillar, he need to go into the process to transform into a butterfly and we like that.
We need to change ourselves first before changing other, though the process is painful but at the end we have a better developed Children of God that ready to face the battles of Christian life. Be strong in facing the change of life and not to fear it. Enduring every seconds that God wants you to be who you are.
Work it to the Glory of God and not for men!