remember me

Being in God’s calling is difficult but you need to endure it, making a difference in the life of the people that you are ministering of. I am aware that I am God’s minister and sometimes in my life I tend to fail God, and the people who looked at me. We definitely make a peoples difference if they saw that we are an agent of age. Change starts within us.

It’s so sad to leave my current area of ministry, missing those people who encourages me when they feel that I am weak, those people who accepted me for who I am and what I am and thinking those children in the field that when we come in their place they smile at us because they are happy that we visited them and teach them. I really don’t know what the will of God is whether I come back or not. But back of my mind said that let them do it so that they will learn. Same with with my home church.

Oh I don’t know my feeling about this, I remembered when we had our youth fellowship in the church that someone asked us how would you remember when you are dead? For me it’s so hard and I don’t know how people would remember me in the ministry maybe some of my closest friends in the ministry would tell that I am a strict, perfectionist woman. But for me I would like to remember that I am so blessed that I know Christ who gives patience, joy, understanding and to share His love to other people. A person who is strict yet a giver, sharing my passion to others. Its always strike me this question of how people would remember me because i am not a people center especially those people I first met, i felt hard to put my trust to them and to mingle with them; I am a person who is hard to adjust. Thinking those time I know that God uses me in a different ways and bringing passion to the little ones, strengthening my spiritual growth and putting my trust to Him more and more.